'I' Novel

ずいぶんzuibun長らくnagaraku歩いてきたaruiteki taようなyou na　そんなsonna気kiがgaしてshiteいたitaだけdakeなんだnanda

It felt like I'd been walking for so very long — but it was just a feeling

小説shousetsuにniしたらshitaraせいぜいseizei　まだmada三行目sangyoumeあたりatariのnoこのkono人生jinsei

If I made it into a novel, I'm still only on about the third line of my life

カバーkabaaもmoまだmada　題名daimeiもmoまだmada　決まらずkimarazuにni書き始めちゃったkakihajimechattaからkara

The cover's not done yet, the title's not done yet — I started writing without deciding

どこdokoでdeどうしてdoushiteどうdouなってってnattette順序junjoよくyoku　収まりosamariつかないtsukanaiやya

How, why, and what happened — I can't get it all in order

今日kyouはwaただただtadatadaもうmou　さぁsaaダラダラdaradaraしようshiyouとto　物思いmonoomoiにniふけててもfuketeetemo

Today I just wanted to slack off, lost in thought, but

早くもhayaku mo僕bokuのno胸muneはwaもぞもぞmozomozoとto動きだすugokidasu　だってdatte

Already my chest starts to squirm and stir — because

心臓shinzouはwa脈打ちmyakuuchi　何nanccccかkaのno血chiをwo全身zenshinへeとto送りだしokuridashiをwo繰り返しkurikaeshi

My heart beats, pumping however-many CCs of blood through my whole body, over and over

今日kyouもmo休まずyasumazu僕bokuはwa僕bokuをwo生かしikashi

Today too, without rest, I keep myself alive

辻褄tsujitsumaあわぬawanuストーリーsutooriiにni　ほろ苦いhoronigai顔kaoでde見るmiruストーリーsutoorii

A story that doesn't add up — a story I watch with a bittersweet face

誇れるhokoreruほどhodoのnoものmonoはwaまだmadaないnaiがga　僕bokuだけdakeにni光るhikaruものmonoはwaあんだanda

I've got nothing to be proud of yet — but there's something that shines only for me

塗りつぶしたいnuritsubushitai？？　破り捨てたいyaburisutetai？？　過去kakoがgaあろうarouともtomo汚れyogoreのnoないnai

Want to paint it over? Want to tear it up? Even if the past is there, a story

物語monogatariなどnado僕bokuはwa惹かれないhikarenai　あぁaa　一瞬isshun先sakiのno自分jibunさえsae

Without a single stain doesn't draw me in — ah, even the me one second from now

もうmou待てないmatenaiよyo　今すぐima suguでもdemo会いたいaitaiよyo

I can't wait anymore — I want to meet you right now

うかうかukaukaしてらんないのshiterannaino

I can't afford to dawdle

はみ出したhamidashita君kimiのno痛みitamiがga　壊れないkowarenaiようにyou niとto涙したnamida shita

Your overflowing pain shed tears so it wouldn't break

ひょっとしたらhyottoshitara　もしかしたらmoshikashitara　それsoreはwaいつかitsukaのnoあのano僕bokuだったdatta

Maybe, just maybe — that was once me, back then

輝いたkagayaita朝asaのno光hikariがga　水たまりmizutamariをwo蹴ってkette飛び散ったtobichatta

The shining morning light kicked a puddle and splashed

あのanoどれdoreかkaがga今imaのno君kimiならnara　いいなii na　いいなii na

If any one of those drops is who you are now — that'd be nice, that'd be nice

どっかdokkaのno誰かdarekaがga勝手にkatte ni君kimiのnoことkotoをwo　あーaaとかtokaこーkooとかtoka言ったりittari

Some random stranger goes and says things about you — this and that

いつのまにかitsu no ma ni ka　君kimiのnoブックbukkuのno表紙hyoushiにni名前namae　勝手にkatte niつけてtsukete

Before you know it, they've put a name on the cover of your book without asking

頭atamaきたkitaよyo　頭atama悪いwaruiけどkedo　あんたantaにni言われるiwareru筋合いsujiaiはwaねぇneeからkara

That ticked me off — I'm not the sharpest, but you've got no right to say that

とっととtotto toいなくinakuなっとくれnattokkure　これkore電車賃denshachin　受け取っとくれuketottokkure

Get lost already — here's your train fare — take it and go

どうにもこうにもdou ni mo kou ni moいかないikanai時tokiでもdemo　どうにかこうにかdou ni ka kou ni ka

Even when nothing works no matter what — somehow, some way

ここkokoまでmadeきたんだよkitandayo　今ima自信jishinをwo持ってmotte言えるieruのnoはwa

I've made it this far — what I can say with confidence now is

僕bokuをwo乗りこなせんのnorikonasennowaはwa　こいつkoitsuのno勝手katteがgaそうsouわかんのwakannowaはwa

The only one who can ride me, who gets how this thing works

他hokaにゃnyaいないんだinainda　このkonoおいらoiraにゃnyaこのkonoポンコツponkotsuくらいkuraiがga丁度いいんだchoudo iinda

Is no one else — this junker is just right for this old me

でもdemoあわよくばawayokuba　まぁmaaいつの日かitsu no hi ka　このkono僕bokuのnoことkoto　このkono僕bokuよりyoriもmo

But if I'm lucky — well, someday — someone who understands me better

よりyori分かってwakatte笑ってwaratteくれるkureru人hitoとto　出逢えるdeaeruとtoいいなii na　なんてnante

Than I understand myself, and laughs — I hope I meet someone like that

そのsono時tokiまでmade待てないmatenaiよyo　今すぐima sugu抱きしめたいdakishimetaiよyo

I can't wait until then — I want to hold you right now

このkono手teでde温めたいatatametaiよyo

I want to warm you with these hands

飛び出したtobidashita白いshiroi光hikariがga　奇跡kisekiとto合わさってawasatte芽meをwo出したdashita

A white light burst out and merged with a miracle, sprouting

それsoreがga僕bokuならnara　いいiiさsaそれsoreならnara　いっそisso奇跡kiseki使い果たすんだtsukaihatasu nda

If that's me — fine then — I'll use up every last miracle

溢れ出したafuredashita君kimiのno涙namidaがga　無駄mudaにniならぬnaranuようにyou niとto駆け出したkakedashita

Your overflowing tears — I started running so they wouldn't go to waste

それsoreをwo見たmita僕bokuがga胸muneにni抱くidaku気持ちkimochi　なんてnante美しいんだutsukushiinda

The feeling I hold in my chest seeing that — how beautiful it is

1秒ichibyou先sakiでde輝いてkagayaite　見えるmieruものmonoだけdake追いかけてoikakete

Shining one second ahead — chasing only what I can see

「「間違いmachigaiなんてnanteないんだからnaindakara」」　そんなsonna言葉kotobaをwo真に受けてma ni ukete

"There are no mistakes" — taking those words at face value

ゼロzeroでde生まれたumareta僕bokuなnaのにnoni　今ima名前namaeをwo呼ぶyobu人hitoがgaいてite

I was born as zero, yet now there are people who call my name

当たり前atarimaeなどnadoないnai脳nouにni　産み落としてumiotoshiteくれてkurete　ありがとうarigatou

To a brain where nothing is taken for granted — thank you for bringing me into this world

例えtatoe1ページichi peejiでde終わるowaru命inochiもmo　1000ページsen peejiにni及ぶoyobu命inochiもmo

Even a life that ends on page one, even a life that spans a thousand pages

比べられるkuraberareruようなyou naもんmonでdeはwaないnai　同じonaji輝きkagayakiをwo放つhanatsuにni違いないchigainai

Can't be compared — they must shine with the same light

あいまいaimai　何の気ないnan no ki nai　言葉kotoba延々en'en紡ぐtsumugu暇himaなどnadoないnai

Vague, offhand words — there's no time to keep spinning them endlessly

1ページichi peejiをwo生きたikita少年shounenのno　本honにniはwa誰dareよりyoriもmo光るhikaru一行ichigyouがga

In the book of the boy who lived one page — there's a single line that shines brighter than anyone's

綴られてtsuzurareteいるんだirunda　そうsou信じてshinjiteやまないんだyamanainda

It's written there — I believe that beyond any doubt

もうmouジタバタjitabataしてたいんだshitetainda

I just want to keep flailing around

僕bokuもmoどれだけdore dake遺せんだnokosenda　ねぇneeどれだけdore dake生きれんだikirenda

How much can I leave behind? Hey, how long can I live?

時間jikan以外igaiのno単位tan'iでde

In units other than time

はみ出したhamidashita君kimiのno痛みitamiがga　壊れないkowarenaiようにyou niとto涙したnamida shita

Your overflowing pain shed tears so it wouldn't break

ひょっとしたらhyottoshitara　もしかしたらmoshikashitara　君kimiのno優しさyasashisaのno影kageだったdatta

Maybe, just maybe — it was the shadow of your kindness

輝いたkagayaita朝asaのno光hikariがga　水たまりmizutamariをwo蹴ってkette飛び散ったtobichatta

The shining morning light kicked a puddle and splashed

あのanoどれdoreかkaがga今imaのno君kimiならnara　いいなii na　いいなii na　いいなii na

If any one of those drops is who you are now — that'd be nice, that'd be nice, that'd be nice