独白Dokuhaku

だましだましdamashi damashiでde息ikiをwoしてたshitetaからkara

I'd been breathing by faking my way through

明日ashitaにni持っていくmotte iku余白yohakuがgaないnaiほどhodo

Until there was no blank space left to carry into tomorrow

ただれtadare腐ってkusatte黒くkurokuなったnatta跡atoがga

The marks that festered, rotted, and turned black

覆いつくしていたooi tsukushiteita

Had covered everything

僕bokuのno歪んだyuganda器utsuwaがga嫌いkiraiでde

I hated my own warped vessel

額hitai打ちつけuchitsuke無力さmuryokusaをwo責めたsemeta

I slammed my forehead against it, blaming my powerlessness

君kimiのno純白なjunpakuna器utsuwaがga綺麗kireiでde

Your pure white vessel was so beautiful

声koeにniならないnaranai声koeでde

With a voice that couldn't become a voice

牙kibaをwo剥いていたmuiteita

I was baring my fangs

背中senaka合わせたawaseta君kimiのno孤独kodokuがga僕bokuだda

Your loneliness with its back to mine — that's me

埋まるumaruことkotoのnoないnaiテスト用紙tesuto youshiをwo片手にkatate ni

With an unanswerable test paper in one hand

ただtada無垢なmukunaままmama歩いていたかったaruiteita katta

I just wanted to keep walking, still pure

敵わないkanawanaiとto気づきたかったkizukitakatta

I wanted to realize I could never win

ずっとzutto

All along

己onoreのno性saga知るshiru度tabiにniいっそisso

Every time I learn my own nature, I wish

あるがままaru ga mamaをwo許せたらyurusetaraいいiiのにnoni

I could just accept things as they are

力一杯chikara ippaiをwo託したtakushita言葉kotobaでde

With words I poured everything into

失いはてたushinai hateta心kokoro全てsubete

Reeling in every last piece

手繰り寄せていたtaguriyoseteita

Of a heart I'd completely lost

向かい合わせたmukai awaseta君kimiのno穴anaがga僕bokuだda

Your emptiness facing mine — that's me

消えるkieruことkotoのnoないnai傷kizuをwo縫いあわせたnuiawaseta

Stitching together wounds that will never fade

みすぼらしいmisuborashiiままmama赤いakai嘘usoをwoついたtsuita

Looking pathetic, I told a crimson lie

叶わないkanawanaiとto分かりたかったwakaritakatta　けれどkeredo

I wanted to understand it would never come true — and yet

ああ、aa,これkoreもmo罪悪zaiaikuかka

Ah, is this a sin too

愛したaishita罰batsuかka

A punishment for loving

触れたfureta指先yubisakiがga震えていたfurueteita事koto

The fingertips I touched were trembling

隣り合わせたtonari awaseta君kimiのno鼓動kodouはwa遠くtooku

Your heartbeat beside mine is so far away

流したnagashita涙namidaひとつhitotsu拭ってnugutteやれないyarenai

I can't even wipe a single tear you've shed

こんなkonna姿sugataじゃja到底toutei生きられないikirarenai

There's no way I can live looking like this

「それでもいい」soredemo ii

"That's still okay"

そうsou思えたらomoetara

If only I could think that

背中senaka合わせたawaseta君kimiのno孤独kodokuがga僕bokuだda

Your loneliness with its back to mine — that's me

解けるhodokeruことkotoのnoないnaiテスト用紙tesuto youshiをwo片手にkatate ni

With an unsolvable test paper in one hand

この手kono teでde今imaはwa探していたいsagashite itaiんだnda

With these hands, for now, I want to keep searching

ぼくbokuはwaここkokoでdeぼくbokuでde生きるikiru

I'll live here as myself

ずっとzutto

Always